Thursday, March 22, 2007

To stay contented as i asked for nothing.

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This entry will be the result of my outburst of feelings and thoughts. So much was being bottled up in me, what could be a better thing to just let the all off? What can be a better company, then to have someone to share. Sadly, i am left with here, the blog. Perhaps i should just have this blog ended in this way. It had served me good for 3/4 years. I named it " i am gonna smile " with the hope that i will be smiling again after the failure in my first relationship. Second to come, it go on with me to my college life, one that could never be better than knowing those who really cared. Many a times to even people closest, closer to heart, they never knew my pain. Holding to the belief that nothing can be too big to contain, and also with my selfishness actions, i hurt people unknowingly in my ways.. i own far too many apologies to them.

Then it come a period of self exploration, one that i went far wrong and hit the ground. And also a period of undeserved grace of time. Though i hold my own time, i called it undeserving because i simply wasted it.

So right here and now, i do for once felt lonely. No God in my heart, no friends, no true family, and no one that i deserve to stand aside/along with. Just the naked me, not tied to anything, not holding to anyone, but helpless and cold stoned staring into the new emptiness that i created. I want and wish to cry for a better tomorrow, but there's nothing left more.

And to the lowest point i stand, and i always thought i hit the lowest once, but with new experience of life, there's will be more lowest to hit. more mistakes to make. more painful experiences. All i want is to truly feel myself one more.

Afterall, i am not so strong a soul too. My weakness is hitting on me again.

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Monday, March 12, 2007

Not my bmw, but have e key! so tempting to drive it... Hehe who say PCK wannabe can't drive BMW?

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Jack the Car!

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My BMW! look like a mini light saber

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PCK wannabe vs the RedGuard

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Ok, trying to blog here...

After slacking for one whole decent week + cny + weeks beofore cny, i am back to work. Woke up 8am today instead of the usual 1pm/3pm/tuition/dinner/out/supper/insomia/1pm/3pm/ That's about all. Ok travelled down to suntec to work for the upcoming IT fair, was workig for my fren's fren's dad's fren... simple job which involves walking. Yup, walking. The job title is project coordinator//high-class foreman, i being paid to see people work, all i do is carry a little file with floorplan n layout and walk ard.. what a simple job. So basically i will be at suntec till Sunday. This brought me back memories of the motorshow, having to be at suntec everyday for 10single days. But for this time round, i am da little BOSS! i can just go shop round marina and suntec when the show start but anyway i did that today.... saw a few stuff but didn't buy impulsively this time.

That's all about it.

Oh travelling today is like going to zouk, was being sandwiched by two girls..a hot and a cold one* can't help but to feel shy when u know ure like so dammn bloody close to another person. Thanks SMRT for making the train services being so "club"-like.. maybe u should have ladies night for train services too... it will be like WOW!

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