Monday, February 05, 2007

It was actually suppose to be checking of certain account info from my email, but i decided to just clear up my email, which stretech all the way back to 2003. I found emails written by dora...i decided to read through them. =) it was sweet, encouraging and more kind. It felt like time travelling back to the year of 2004 and 2005. Just like a old friend of yours conveying her thoughts through a time machine. ( like those time capsule which u dig and bury those item ) Most came from the timeline where i just entered army, and those where she was pre-occupied by her trainings and exams. I think i didn't quite understand her needs last time, on second thoughts i think i know it now. One thing that i learnt is that time spent is not everything.. maybe by givin quality time n sincere encouragment, and exchange of pure feelings and understanding beats more than time spent dining, shopping or even catching a show together. The constant connection of the heart? some say it just those sms that counts, i say it's the longing to connect. i say true love is one which can stand the test of time.. what do u think? I often blame it on the mismatch of time//how often i am envious of those whose rs can last through army..i am totally envious and baffled. Maybe they are truly deeply in love and i am not. Maybe.

It's just memories. And the longing to see how she's doing. I am quite certain it pays nothing to write all these down and it doesn't bring back the longing to connect anymore.

Hmm aside from all that... thought of getting of a new phone. Even my phone stops me from connecting sometimes. 2yrs of JC, 2 yrs of soldering, 4 more years of uni. And how many more to live and love?

jjia leaving skool at 1:28 AM

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