Monday, November 06, 2006

Post ORD time?

Offically i am gona start work soon, so i guess i am left with one week of holidays? But that doesn't really bother me much. Less the wednesday and thursday, friday fun, i am sure i can still find time out to do stuff i want with the remaining time.

Sometimes u survive on with love, care,.. blah blah...
right now i need some vitamins C. Maybe i will go get some tml... other than being feeling flu-y most of the time i can't help but to lose most interest in doing anything. There's a difference between losing interest in doing things u usually do and having nothing to do! I guess both are equally bad.

Haven't being really be here to write down the emotional stuff. It's a good thing sometimes to know that a particular person actually remembers me.

I wasn't particularly being thinking much into "this kind" of things for months, most of it was into just enjoying and having fun. ( both in the context of just enjoyment ). Be it a healthy or unhealthy form of enjoyment, like smoking ur life away? or getting drunk like a fool? wake up puking? or having to hook up with pple's life....or just purely chasing after the invisibles? it's all time.. but i don't see it as a waste. but rather a realisation to myself. to see a total different person. of one that i can't just exactly say of what and how. Maybe that's what they called a change. I don't like to tag it with bad or good now.

No more buts', no more becauses and what if, because i don't wish to explain. what's there more to explain? yesh perhaps to myself.

To explain why i failed in certain ways? a reality check? a list of what should and what shouldn't be?

for the first time, i found it so easy to just ease them all of my mind. Maybe that explained to how it all turn out to be now.

This i say is for the ones who i failed to appreciate and to the ones who failed to appreciate me.

jjia leaving skool at 12:25 AM

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