Sunday, June 25, 2006

Caught the king and the clown the other day, i didn't know it's some porn gay shiet with a few twisted fate for the characters. Pardon me if u find senseless in reading this entry today. Actually it goes out to a person less known to others in my life, someone who i used to fear and love not because she was so fearsome. Maybe with a little of my respect, i should first apologize for what happened today. I am sure we all get into a few relationship with people who first not known for, and through times u get closer physically and emotionally. Someday u will think of marrying her, someday u wished it was all over. But before u actually speak ur mind, she simply tells u that she leaving u. Sure most of us had been into this kind of stituation. Nod ur head silently if u think it happened to you and u agree with me.

You met her someday, somewhere and u got attention. Then she got interested in you too. Then somehow the attention thing goes on, and soon u will find the shift in the power as u get closer and closer to her. Man like to gives most of their innnermost feeling for the one closest to their heart. There's goes on with months, years, and someday she walked away from u. A few possible reason she will give. Like i do't feel anything anymore, it's not your fault; something is wrong with me. I just need to be ALONE.

Or maybe ure into this super long marathon kind of running relationship and when someday she dropped a bomb telling you that she don't love you anymore. She couldn't understand what's holding her back and she choose not to explain but to walk away silently... simply it means the same as get lost, i wanna be ALONE too..

Feeling powerless after everything right? Got busted by a woman u dreamnt living and sleeping with?

Yes, you are dammn right.

To those nodding silently, i should say u should just stop doing what u have been trying all along. Stop it and break it. Yesh, i do mean BREAK UP. that's how things can get stopped. I don't mean breaking up it's the end product here but just a process. What u wish to manafacture is purely and mostly up to your own will now.
From now on, the next step is so crucial..

Somehow i don't even figure out, which steps should be taken. I am just stucked here though most of the time i figure out what i wanted is not what can be done. Maybe it's not me, it's her. Maybe it's not being about rude but just pure finger pointing. From all the most probably reason and correlations, i think it's just all wrong. To put it that way, u finished drawing a piece of artwork but somehow u dislike the material and decides to go all over again making a new one...Ok now, tear and break it up. I don't mind that idea, but i am going to be that person who's going to make it all up again. Hey Dinner time le, wo yao chi fan le

jjia leaving skool at 6:22 PM

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