Thursday, June 29, 2006

Through my fingers i touched my soul.

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

Caught the king and the clown the other day, i didn't know it's some porn gay shiet with a few twisted fate for the characters. Pardon me if u find senseless in reading this entry today. Actually it goes out to a person less known to others in my life, someone who i used to fear and love not because she was so fearsome. Maybe with a little of my respect, i should first apologize for what happened today. I am sure we all get into a few relationship with people who first not known for, and through times u get closer physically and emotionally. Someday u will think of marrying her, someday u wished it was all over. But before u actually speak ur mind, she simply tells u that she leaving u. Sure most of us had been into this kind of stituation. Nod ur head silently if u think it happened to you and u agree with me.

You met her someday, somewhere and u got attention. Then she got interested in you too. Then somehow the attention thing goes on, and soon u will find the shift in the power as u get closer and closer to her. Man like to gives most of their innnermost feeling for the one closest to their heart. There's goes on with months, years, and someday she walked away from u. A few possible reason she will give. Like i do't feel anything anymore, it's not your fault; something is wrong with me. I just need to be ALONE.

Or maybe ure into this super long marathon kind of running relationship and when someday she dropped a bomb telling you that she don't love you anymore. She couldn't understand what's holding her back and she choose not to explain but to walk away silently... simply it means the same as get lost, i wanna be ALONE too..

Feeling powerless after everything right? Got busted by a woman u dreamnt living and sleeping with?

Yes, you are dammn right.

To those nodding silently, i should say u should just stop doing what u have been trying all along. Stop it and break it. Yesh, i do mean BREAK UP. that's how things can get stopped. I don't mean breaking up it's the end product here but just a process. What u wish to manafacture is purely and mostly up to your own will now.
From now on, the next step is so crucial..

Somehow i don't even figure out, which steps should be taken. I am just stucked here though most of the time i figure out what i wanted is not what can be done. Maybe it's not me, it's her. Maybe it's not being about rude but just pure finger pointing. From all the most probably reason and correlations, i think it's just all wrong. To put it that way, u finished drawing a piece of artwork but somehow u dislike the material and decides to go all over again making a new one...Ok now, tear and break it up. I don't mind that idea, but i am going to be that person who's going to make it all up again. Hey Dinner time le, wo yao chi fan le

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Saturday, June 24, 2006

Just did like 6 difeerent exercise for training up my quadriceps. Technically the quadriceps are make up of the vastus inermedius, rectus fermoris, vatus lateralis and the vatus medialis.. and blah blah. So i sweating like a pig, one of my post 2006 goal is to train up my 2 chieken legs and say goodbye to them.

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Friday, June 23, 2006

Bags are sought after by the woman, and watch by the man..

Do u still remember the days when u go school.. my mum bought a sch bag and daddy gave me a little black watch.

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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Right now i am enjoying the supper that i had prepared for myself! Hotdog Bun + 3 in 1 Coffee!! I am so hungry. Didn't really know why do i have to blog this in too. It's a 2-1 to portgual. won some $ again =) but i am down with a spoiled phone!

Getting it repaired tml. oh it abt 86 more days of working.. ( Thanks Ronny and Jayce ) We topped 3 the chart for ORD!!!!

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kissgoodbye to 20062006

This is just an extract from some email

"i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it."

We do really just choose to recongnise the words but not letters. I think we live through our days recongnising just the start and the end. That's how we set foot to the start of the new things happening. somehow no matter how messed up how the order of our life, i believe God will set it back right once more.

I am one lost soul right now. svae me oh lrod. save me ...

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Sunday, June 18, 2006

Went out with the hc pple tonight. I won some money expectingly from the portgual match. Thanks man. it was a fine 2-0. So far it's being a break even.. haha ok with some $ being contribute to buying pple drinks and stuff. Took 65M home, poor boy has to go pass 2 sad places. Sometimes, it hurts, sometimes it don't. Sometimes, you can still choose to keep the happy memories, sometimes u can't. Goodnight to both.. i am stuck with the song...

She said to me, "Go steady on me.
Won't you tell me what the Wise Men said?
When they came down from Heaven,
Smoked nine 'til seven,
All the shit that they could find,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun."

Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Delirious!!!!!


I am quite tired this morning after the swim yesterday. long time since i dip into the water. Swam just like 40min and i off the pool! I am off to support the match later. Go ...show them ur skills!

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Monday, June 12, 2006

Once again, I am back!

What a dammn tiring day! Surprisingly, she msged me yesterday. Seriously i wasn't bitching about you. And if i really did cry, i was quite a silly fool. Anyway to miss, sorry. It's Japan vs Aussie later. I off to support the Australian, too bad i can only watch the first half and then i am back to camp. I need a goodnight rest tonight. I am really exhausted.

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Sunday, June 11, 2006

Bathing can be a inspiring to do too!

Dammn as i on the shower tap, the sprinkling of water brought me back memories of the past. I started drawing a comparison how life is when i was like 10yrs younger. I used to be a richer boy back then whereby i have a bathing tub ( yu gang - han yu pin yin ) and my ninja turtles swimming all around. Of course i won't be mean enough to drown em and sure i have a little submarine i make from lego ( not the pirated mama shop in mrbrown show ) and of course my mum wouldn't praise me playing lego in the bathroom! indeed it was like a water sanctuary for me back then. That was a time when i was young and happier.

So right now, what do i have? and what i can do in the bathroom.
Here's the list :

1. Bathing of course if not what?
2. Adjust the heater and the cooler thing, which works basically on a seasonal basis. ( for instant bathing in camp on an afternoon, there's natural heating! )
3. Smsing in the bathroom which recently i do because it was so rushy to leave the home and at the same time communciating with another party on where and what time to meet.
4. Crying in the bathroom after u have a bad dream or because a bitch broke your heart.
5. Doing phsyical exercise, hydrotherapy or whatever shiet. Not to forget those push-up that u can do ( it's also a physic lesson learn, dammn it's harder to do those pushes with less friction )
6. Listen and blast music from my phone. Dammn it's cheap!
7. Oh improvise and read newspapers while bathing. A hard time stuggling not to wet the magazine/papers!
8. Imagine that i am some Singapore Idol and start singing like no ends!
9. Spend like 20minutes on brushing teeth ( i will explain why )

And here's a list of my ideal bathroom :

1. A jacuzzi en-abled tub, with auto sprinkling of water on my back!
2. A 40 inch plasma which is water-proof.
3. A dammn bloody power stereo set!
4. Air-conditioned bathroom - don't ask me why because hotel bathroom have aircon too
5. A anti-fog mirror which is like 40inch. ( Now u know why i spend so much time brushing teeth )
6. A life-insurance just in case any of those electrical device decide to give a dammn good shock of ur life! And u gain some cash back in return. What a good deal.


Dammn.

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Just reached home!

Suppose to go dan's place, oh no sharon's but i was late. But anyway, it was a tiring day! yup world cup. What a good way to idle the whole month of June away. Let's all contribute to the lose the world cup fund ( i have a balance of -5 ) I am a winner!

Betting with invisible money is a good way to earn instant cash, or lose them instantly too!!!


Hmm.. i guess school will be starting for some, but not for me. Sometimes making a big mistake is far worse than making many small mistake. Save the explanation JJ, save it for someone else and not for me. I guess she probably must be thinking of that. Just make a big mistake, i always like strawberry with sugar, on the other hand dark chocolate is always bitter! If i were to choose again, i will choose strawberry. Channel 8 show is dammn inspiring, choose none and be happy - what a good way to end thing!

Goodbye!

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Thursday, June 08, 2006

Making the impossible possible?!?

Shaking from the left to the right,

hitting nothing but just down to the right.

It's nothing left, but just right to the start.

I was happy. I was sad.

But right now, i am happy. Happy for the things that bring me back to the

start.

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Wow that's Life?!?

Luckily, i was around.

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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

I am on Duty!! 

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Tic Tac Toe 

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Sunday, June 04, 2006

Look Nice? 

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My Honeydew Sago  

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Stairs Stairs Stare 

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It's sunday! Burned!??! Out.

Suppose to wake up this morning going cycling on the tiny north-easten island off the mainland, but i guess lazing on the bed was too attractive a deal. Met justin for pc fair and late lunch. Great i will say the dessert was good and thanks for the companion! After that it was meeting up with daniel and jarrod for dinner. Tampines was crowded as usual..

I would say dan is one of a kind driver. Went down to dan's house to pick up some stuff and he was a kind driver today, picking up Julia. I guess he overdid his corner and he drive his car like a tank! Then it's was poker down at Sharon's place... oh i had a small winning and i bluff my way to win with my straight flush! it was evil but the supper at chomp chomp was great with the gigantic sugarcane.


Okay that's all, i still got to sleep but the dammn data is still transfering!

Goodnight and sleep sound. Forgive me Lord!

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Thursday, June 01, 2006

Just a random entry by my phone while sitting in office today.

Sometimes as things can become rough and de-energizing, taking an self imposed exile offers a solution. sittin down at a corner encloses you in a cocoon of concentration and focus. after clearing out the tormented mind, issues and challenges become more define. things flowed more easily. it is quite amazing how we humans can get so eluded in e noise and demand of the everyday work, how many of us really grabbed hold of what that really mattered. as i was reading through the bk which topicalized on internet, i wonder if technology really drawn we humans closer. misty isolation offers me to bring things to a better focus, i think what interlink humans are the heart and soul. without either of them, we will cease to breath or exist.. how sad can one be if he takes the form of the unwanted data, being erased off from the technological database. i am off to my self imposed exile.

To add on just abit more : A philosophy abt screwin up, all was forgiven as long as you learned something frm ur mistake and avoided repeating it.

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