Saturday, January 14, 2006

It's 3.19pm.

319 sounds really a nice number.. I figure out people around today seemed abit impatient, probably because it's sunny today. With the absence of mr sunny due to e past week of rain, today is a gd day to go out and have some fun.. To feel the sun, see e clear sky..

Next week, i am going back to the mountain block of 5 storeys and a confinement day awaits. I will have 24hrs ++ more all for myself. It's e first time i am going through it, to make it worst, i am the only one having to go through that.. Cheers..

My, me jj?a music-maniac? which e playlist had only three song. MM is there such word? I am a maniac, the songs just add on to everything i feel. I got two new songs today down e list- one blood, and ji ba ban ( hokkien song which sounds like what e dreams of all singaporean ) real funny with e song. Of course the last song is FUCK it.. The list makes a perfect music combination, A funny song, then a song of betrayal.. and ends with a song of brotherhood... This reminds me of the main character in the book of High Fidelity.. Just a afternoon, with the companion of alcohol and smoke, he spent the time.. As he figure out on his broken relationship. On comparision, i am much off better, i had coffee instead of alcohol, i didn't smoke either.. my relationship is yet to be broken. So i am, much better off.. maybe without all this shiet.

That guy in Fidelity never remain faithful... The title High fidelity cast a big contrast onto him. His faithfulness is always being tested by lust and sex, n with bits of loneliness.. i think women are really much better off without a bloke.. I guess sometime man should not be trusted at all... But again, the betrayal from a woman comes like a long sharpened dagger, with full throttle, it just plunge all e way, i really mean all e way into ur heart. U never know when it will come, so u can never attempt to dodge it. The story will always end with e man dying there, killed by his most loved. What crap am i typing man?

ok, shall get myself to be more organised with my thoughts. Seriously, i find it real hard to express one's feeling handily down to a person. To make things worst, it awlays turn out to my own disadvanatge. Why not just keep my self in the buddha-like composure, make it calm. But that will choke me, and make me numb.. after awhile, i don't think i will be even speaking.. That's me, after so many years, i am still lousy with words. Even blooging here makes me choke..

At times, when i come back to read what i wrote, i feel really choke up, dumbfolded to see why am i in that state of mind..when i think i shd be doing fine.

Cheer on again.. it's just 295days more to go.
Cheer on because u know u will be happily going somewhere at e end of 06
Cheer on because u know u will really study hard to see those A's in ur study bag
Cheer on because u know u will be dammn rich next time.
Cheer on because u will make e world a better place.
Cheer on because ur family will be so happy next time.
Cheer on because as u die, u know many will remember u.
Cheer on because death is the liberation to life.

Cheer on, because now you found some peace with urself.

Cheer on because it's gona be 4pm soon. I am going out to enjoy e sun!

jjia leaving skool at 3:22 PM

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