Monday, September 19, 2005

It's 7.17am.. nice morning.. Feeling sober yet a little tired, due to the fact that i have not been sleeping for the past 12hrs. I have turned day to night yet again. This long break are simply coming to an end, 2months? Actually, i am not quite sure about that, maybe an extenstion will make me a happier man. Eventually, i still must face the reality that i have to go back for service. This bondage is coming to the middle point, so it's about one yr more to go..

Gonna sum up some thoughts that i had for these past 2 months. Health is the most important thing, it's also one wealth that we should never squander away.. Now i know how important is the body..

Another thing that i come to realise.. is the spirit of self-scarification. Sacrificing for a noble cause is glorifying.. but foolish sacrification is self-renunciation. The latter creates a stonewall that cast one away from hope n opportunity. But again, a sacrification of one's should be for a greater reason for others. As i mull over events in my timeline of these 18yrs, i know i can never live this 18yrs without regrets. Knowing that one could never live without regrets, i still thought that i could have done certain things differently.. But coming to terms with myself after all these events, i know..i should not had sacrifce the many precious that i once had.. but i know i can't live this life in self-denial.. i feel poor in the inner-self right now. Weak.

I know Hope is still the poor man's bread.

Shall not cry from this second onwards, though i will very much like to..

I know miracle will happen.

jjia leaving skool at 7:17 AM

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