Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Yea perhaps she is right, i will not miss her or gradually not miss her anymore..

But infact i will and still do so.. i guess it's a yr of great uncertainty for both of us. A year of exams for her and a year trainings ( if i presume so).. both of us will be busy and our attention will be diverted away from each other. I always think that in having the patience in waiting for an answer will eventually solve the problem at the end of the day. But i was wrong, there must be initiative in either of the party.. ( who's gonna do that? )

Had always thought that we will learn to adapt to the situation.. and i will just do what i can for her. Nevetheless the great vicissitude of life will just break us away. Maybe our rs is never strong, a short, small tremor just make us fall. Fallen....

Well, it will be better if things aren't going this way. Why forseen it as just a road of misery? Eager to just hit and cut through the whole route and get to the end of it? But i am just bending through it. I am still waiting patiently to see what is going to happened in the end - the end of this rs? Hopefully no, i wish no sorrow nor pain. I had once a bad experience already and now it makes me numb when i think how bad the situation was last time.

I am just thinking why not meeting her at a later phase of my life. I can't help to agree with some stuff she told me.. she's certain in what she wants. Helpless jj.. i just feel like wrapping up everything and tell myself that nothing happened.

-My guardian smiley angel- will you shine once again?

jjia leaving skool at 12:29 AM

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