Saturday, January 29, 2005

I am back home for a few hours already. Meanwhile my family is going out soon for cny shopping. But i decided to do my own shopping and hoepfully wish to see dora. But nevertheless she's busy so i just go out myself. Quite a few things i wanna get lucky i hav some spare bucks and my miserable pay to spend. The things i am gettin is more of what i need, rather than what i wanted...

then i will back to e saddest place in singapore and "countdown" to the next book out day..

" seven days to bk out day, bk out, bk out day! "

Hmm, i hope that i can into ocs and be in the navy. I just wanted to go out to the sea and hopefully to learn and see more things. But everything is too early to say, just got to wait and see again. I really want it. Something i want.

Hmm.. seriously army can change a boy to a man. But also makes u dumb and dumber.

I am going to the saddest bus interchange to board the saddest bus, n to take the saddest boat, and finally to the saddest place at 1930 tml again


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Saturday, January 22, 2005

Exactly abt an hour or so to change into my uniform and to leave for tekong again.
Yesterday is really a great day that having some fun sitting the buggee stuff and walking through places we went before.. Flying high and e feeling of being throw out is what i got out of the ride.Ironically, I feel as if i am being thrown out of someone's life at this point of time

To that someone out there :

Carry on ur life in happiness if u think i am ur source of saddness.
Never give up easily in life. Cause u never know what is the outcome if u tried.

I am not giving it up like what u told me to do. And I don't wish to follow ur order either..

I think she misunderstood my actions. I am not sad because i am thinking ways to let u go. Neither am i sad to see u go. I am sad becasue i can't stop u frm going if u really do..

Bye blog, bye Smiley. Byebye.. it's not just 21 days. But it's a whole stretch of memories that keep me going on..




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Friday, January 21, 2005

Thinking back yesterday nite. I see my self being so childish and unreasonable. Didn't expect to create a storm out of it, and spoiling everything. Hopeless me.

Doubt,
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Uncertainty.

Fear,
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Pain.

Unbearable,
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Fool.

Picking up e pieces, i hope i can mend it back.

Jan21, Happy b'day to someone out there.



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Love is selfish

U can either break her heart or urs...

what a great phrase..

If u live ur days in sorrow, always remind urself of tomorrow. A whole new beginning - of happiness but not sorrow. Say to urself that u r one lucky chap who is still breathing.. n not dead.

I was walking ard today not looking at pple..But at e surrounding. I am feeling like a tourist. Everywhere seemed so different. Even the way i look at myself into mirror seemed so different.
Lost in translation.

Lost in this world. I feel as if i don't belong here. I am not only battling e Z monster but e N monster and fighting a war called "Love". I need a potion that can free me. Bending low, i see e steps i take - small. And e strokes i wield - weak. I see e small jj in e mirror. An old mirror is always e true reflection of one self. No matter how time can change e way u look, it can always never take away e same old stuff in u - inborned. Often hidden if u see urself in a new mirror.. cause e new mirror is always clear and superficial...

By the way, am i talking any sense?




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Thursday, January 20, 2005

I am backed!

Yup feeling a little detached during the stay in over e 2 weeks. A memorable experience indeed? I will say that pple ard is generally nice and friendly. My buddy is a great guy and like to say " Irritating " and call pple " suckers " and enjoy reading bks whenever he's free. Although he has a gf but he see no point in communicating to her when he's in camp. Truly, a manly guy ya. Haha.. i wished i am like him. My bed is darn shaky and it worrys me. The food is generally chicken n chicken.. i wonder how much chicken is being slaughter everyday for soldiers like us.

Enough of this army crap.. nothing much as usual. I changed back to my samsung phone and start smsing a few frens.. and they speedy replied. Did some catching up.. oh btw they will be a lot of botak bking out today... Most are working and some are slacking.. I wished i can hav a longer holidays.

As for ms dora? Haha i think she's quite sad that i am not able to spend more time with her. Feeling a little hard to get on? I wondered. But it's quite hard to adapt to this new lifestyle because it's really busy in camp and the free time is like so short. My rest time is sometime being eaten up too.. but i am still trying my best to do whatever i can. But nevertheless i will cherish the time i can spend with her.. a simple sms frm her can indeed brighten up my day and so i dun think i will demand much from her. She's just a ger that i loved so much.

It's soon to be afternoon... I shall go out to take a walk.


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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Bye Blog..

I will miss all of you there...

Be backed in a few weeks time..

Lep right Lep right..serving e dammn country =p


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