Thursday, December 30, 2004

Pattern

Pattern. I start to believe things ard work in a certain pattern. As we take a closer look to things ard, somethings tend to come after another in occurence. But often we are blinded by our foolishness in not following the pattern.

Also, we can learn from pattern. Like for what will follow after an action - the outcome. The outcome can be expected and be predictable if we learn. And be unexpected if we never learn.

Taking a look at myself, i never learned. Or rather i did learn but the outcome is of one which i never expected. I never did learn everything. Sinking in sullen and pain, i relfect. I relfect and learn. I learn and i try again. Failure comes and i am back in pain again. It's just how my life pattern is. However i believe pattern can change. And i shall make it change.


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Saturday, December 25, 2004

Five Hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes

That's the length of a year!

I am older by one year old again!

Merry Christmas!!

And a very Happy B'day to Me!!

It's a season of Love!


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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

I am grounded!!!

Because of MONEY!!

I need money.. at this point of time i dun mind robbing the back.
The world is a crap because of the existance of $..

I declare myself as poorest now..living under UN defination of poverty ( daily income less than a dollar )




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Monday, December 20, 2004

Woke up by siao eh this morning..

Guess they all had fun at Orchard yesterday nite, but i prefer to stay home to rest. Well, i am going out soon with him too.. Finally he's free ya. Oh btw there's 12 days to 2005. Countdown? A new year resolution? a closing chapter for all the things of2004? Haha.. all i know is that i am going to be 18 yrs old soon. Finally. My b'day is coming! Well, going to celebrate this b'dae with my family and i wan my b'dae cake on the eve!!! Hope my b'day will be gd..

I was talking to many old friends online yesterday and also receive a sms from a senior asking me abt enlistment and stuff.. i am quite touched ya. As we all take different paths in life, we should never forget the people that had walked with us. The love and kindness that they gave. The advice that guided us. The encouragments that kept our dreams on. The joy and happiness they shared with us. I will remember all this for my life. I hope the ties will not change and i will still love every single one.

The need to be understand and the ability to comprehend what other say is important.
The need to be loved and the ability to love others is equally important too.





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Sunday, December 19, 2004

It's been a long time since i blogged..

Do less blogging means more things bottled up inside me? well, i am not sure abt that. Just came bac frm chalet..(my pet phrase in the chalet is " i am lonely ") n aso seeing her off.. It's been the third day she's away...

Had some tots abt life. There's always a happy phase and also a truthful phase in life. We all look back and smile. We smile because we are all once fools.. we love it because of it sweetness. I wonder if it's a closing chapter of my life? I am not looking forward to that though but my life will soon take off from a very different route in the coming future. Yes. I am indeed uncertain abt the future. But neverthless, i am sure that i will never forget that someone who gave me the happiness in this year of my life... thinking bac.. i just love her so.. How i wish God can give me more time.. please...

Ok time to sleep.. zz going to hug my pooh again.




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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

It's a night of sadness. Once again i am really tumbling down..i didn't expect so much. It cam e crushing down..at the very moment that i tot she dun wanna try anymore..i am hurting her once again.

Walking down this passage of time, i feel remorseful. i can't ans her questions, her doubts and aso for my actions. always not doing the right thing at the correct moment marks me down. Where's e comfort i gave? e very little bits of happiness? Now i know that being loved is indeed a blessing..because you will never doubt that person if you loved him..

I dun feel like writing anymore...


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Saturday, December 04, 2004

Yesterday is fun n enjoyable. I had nice voice to hear. " Ge ren yan chuang hui " lol...it's pretty nice and she really can sing... Singapore is a small and packed country. I guess the government need to be aware that human density is going up. I think the only place to enjoy peace is cemetary ( They can really rest in peace there )

Nothing much. Oh i was singing yesterday...but with lotsa of mixed feelings.. i wonder if i was even concerating when i am out yesterday.. Feeling kinda lost. But at least i got the direction right if not we will not be able to reach paradiz centre. Lost LOST LOST.. JJ is so weak..the game of love is so hard to play..Need to be stronger and smarter.

Btw..i must mention the scammer.. u really did a good job in amusing me and u know my life pretty well, don't u? must i meet u out for someday n have a coffee with u? I guess i own u a treat. N u know what.. i am really a gay.. i can do any gayish service if u pay me gd enough. Hav fun..i hope my blog has really given u a place to enjoy... haha u lifeless creature.


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