Friday, October 22, 2004

It was a bad day. Due to some bad stuff happening, i cannot go to the hiking trip anymore ya. I was really feeling down. Enough of the stress i had from e upcoming exam , i even have to face such stupid problem now. I wondered why sometimes my dad always like to do stuff before even asking me. ( i am the son! ) He always like to choose what he wants.. as and when he like to do his stuff.. Who can i complain to? again..yesterday once and today again.

Enough of this shit stuff.. was trying to clear my drawer just now. I found some letters. Some was from derrick n the other was from ym. Hmm.. they looked really old ( esp derrick's letter ) they were yellowish with the ink starting to fade away. As i am reading through the letter, i came to realise that there are many times i pissed him and her off.. i guess i wasn't tactful enough to know what to say sometimes. ( with regard to something which happened yesterday )
Maybe i am.. i wonder.. i am just someone who speaks out of my mind.. logically.. n it hurts pple sometimes.. maybe it's because of the unwanted truth and facts which came out of me that hurted other pple.. i think first ya.. i cared... cared enough to say those stuff? Like what gay always say i nag to him in the past.. precisely i cared for him and this buddy of me would get annoyed.

Life is always like this.. Is it because we are all just human.. Human never seems to really understand one and another. The complexity make it hard to read their mind. Even if you do.. their thinkings may just change as time pass...

This lucky gay got police.. as for me.. BMTC ya..6 jan.. what a nice date.. It's monday.. The day my freedom ends.


jjia leaving skool at 1:22 PM

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