Saturday, July 24, 2004

A brand new day, i fell sick yesterday. I guess it must be the flu bug in the class. Had a rest yesterday nite. Since the term started i never had a gd night of rest till yesterday nite. I see my whole day of work as a nightmare to me. To me sleep is like a gd gd dream regardless of what the dream it may be. Well, prelims is coming. I need a balance cause i think i can't burn everything out right now. Well Well.. it's life again. After reading the enrty " unfinished business " by marcus, i felt i had one unfinished business. One which i'm confused about. It's the relationship which i have with a ger. A emotional baggage? I dunno.. Lost love? i dun think so? constant signs of affection? To her? maybe..

She's nice. But...... i still duno what she wan.. I do like her n i'm trying to stop myself to lovin her. It hurts more when you get to love a person n can't get to be together. So that's e reason sometimes i seem quite cold? " jj, dun ignore me? " I'm not.. just that i'm a little upset by her. Come to know of things around can get really saddening. Especially to know that someone u know also like the person you like. Hmm.. although i know that guy but i guess i will do nothing about it. It's up to her to choose who she want? or maybe she isn't aware of it.. or maybe she isn't aware that i know about it. Anyway there's really nothing much i can do about it. Ignorance is a bliss really, it's just too bad to be too observant sometimes. I can get really very sensitive to this kind of thing sometimes. Maybe the relationship didn't meant to start? Heaven knows. But i'm thankful of the beautiful memories she left inside me. I just dun like the feeling of hanging halfway in the mid-air. I can't afford to have a fall esp a emotional one right now. I'm a emotionally weakling. I can be so strong n quiet outside but deep in i know who i realli am... Time to study again =)



jjia leaving skool at 12:13 PM

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