Saturday, May 22, 2004

Came across some old Jay's song ( Xing Qing & Long Juan Feng ) Hmm.. It's like 3 or 4 yrs ago.. it's as if i'm still in ahs n my my class 4c n stuff... Suddenly recall so much.. It's those daes. Those gd daes with derrick.. Suddenly recall when those daes Jm teaches me how to play swing.. Sort of a extreme sport to me.. It's like swing vertically up.. It hav become a hobby to me last time. I will go play swing alone whenever i'm down. I remembered once that i nearly puke out. (Like a 5 old kid) Hmm time has passed so fast. Jm has become a officer? derrick n i was in different jc now. Realli missed those daes. How i wish life can be make simpler n sweet.

But as i grew up, i realized more abt things in life. I see both the good and bad of living in this world. I had always trying to keep things right in place, n put on a smile to wipe off all the troubles deep down me. Purpose? Yes - To be a positive young man. Actually i came to realize that i'm still surviving. Although i had a major depression last yr, i'm still alive. I came to know abt pple who do foolish things to end their own life. ( Cutting their hands, Jumping off a building n stuff ) Taking a look at myself, i'm really glad that i never try to attempt any. A conclusion i had drawn from the book: Tuesday with Morrie - is to live life bravely everyday.

But as i grew up. I feel that the society is really like a big tall ladder. Sometimes i just can't help to feel superior to some of my counterparts in terms of behavior, thinking - intelligence. While some other time i need to learn n look up to those who i feel inferior to. To observe n learn. I guess that's the only way to climb up this ladder.

Is that all the purpose of life? To be brave, strong, and to seek success? I dunno. Some pple seek love. Teenagers like me seek love just because they feel lonely... and perhaps they need someone to rely and share their joy n sadness? i dunno. Well.. i guess i seek love in which it will be those of everlasting? i dun believe in those with the mentality of " eh, try try la..maybe it's true love, who knows? " Well, i dunno. I’m still learning how to love and really show care to my own family first.. So as i always think - If u have a warm n happy family. Why will u seek accompany from any other?



Just some cartoon to kill the boredom of reading the above stuff








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